I think I’ve finally begun to figure out some things in my life.
Haha isn’t that funny.
We all feel like at some point we’re trying to figure out who we are and what our grand purpose is.
For years, I tied so much of who I was to a job, a career. That’s who I was.
I wasn’t a writer who worked at a newspaper. I was an employee of the newspaper.
So I think that is why for so long I have struggled to even look at doing anything else with my life with or without the newspaper.
I wasn’t just married to what I was doing. I was married to the place. And that’s not all bad. I have a family of friends and co-workers there who I love dearly. But now more than two months into my furlough with no end in site, I have to look at my whole world view and not just that one.
In the last couple of years, I have tried to look at my life without it and honestly I couldn’t see past it.
I applied for a couple different jobs and was even offered one but working outside the community with two small children didn’t seem like the best idea for me.
But really I think the biggest hurdle for me was seeing myself as someone who could share my beloved essential oils with others AND make a business of it. I didn’t see how I could do it.
I didn’t know what the hurdles were. I didn’t understand my own fears — and some I still don’t.
But the other day I saw a quote on Facebook that really spoke to me.
It said: “Most people are skeptical of what I do because we’ve been taught to look for jobs not opportunities.”
I never consciously said in my mind to my recollection that this isn’t a real job; people can’t make money doing this or anything like that. Some of my dearest friends are very successful.
I think subconsciously I didn’t see this as an opportunity or a job for me.
I think a lot of it goes back to that old view that home-based businesses aren’t real, don’t make you any money, etc.
However, there is no question that in today’s pandemic world, more and more businesses are moving home. There are people in any number of careers that work from home. So that’s a silly outdated argument.
This business isn’t a job. It isn’t a place where I would go and punch a time clock. This is an opportunity. It’s an opportunity for me to grow and expand as a person. Its an opportunity for me to share these amazing products with others who need them in their lives.
When this furlough of mine is over, hopefully I’ll have a job at the newspaper. I don’t know what that job will be but in a world where I need health insurance and money to pay for my home and life, I still need that job.
I just plan to also put so much more of myself in to this opportunity to change and improve my life and the lives of others.