How do you identify yourself?
Are you a woman, a daughter, a sister, a mother, a friend, an employee, a boss?
After nearly 16 years as the employee of one company, I now find myself more than two months furloughed from that place.
It started as “my first job” and then became my only job and then my home.
It was the place where I found purpose, met people, made friends, and lived a good portion of my life. I was able to connect with people, share their stories and be me.
So when that was all taken away and the rug was pulled out from under me a few months ago, I didn’t know what to do with myself.
I felt lost and to tell you the truth in some ways I still do.
I’ve known for a while now that there is life outside that career and have looked for ways to do different things away from there but I think I was scared. No, I know I was and am scared.
I think for a long time I have been fearful of change and looking at life outside of or without that job is scary.
Even if I wanted to leave or whatever the case may be, the idea of doing anything else was and is frightening.
For years, I have had other options staring me in the face and literally sitting at my feet but I was too caught up in the information and too scared to jump, to do anything.
A few months ago, I took a leap by taking up a freelancing job to stretch my writing muscles and see if my talents would hold up in other places. And you know what, they have.
Not only have I been able to do that job but I have excelled and succeeded in not only writing but proving to myself I am worthy outside of the place I called home.
Some people might think I’m crazy for questioning my value but after more than a decade in the same place, I didn’t know my own value for various reasons.
Its not that there weren’t people out there who didn’t make me feel valued, talented and loved. I think part of it was that I wasn’t hearing it or feeling it as I should.
As I look to this next chapter of my life, I have started this blog as a way to express myself and connect with others.
The blog isn’t my only plan for the future. It is one of the building blocks for new plans, new goals and new missions to build a better me. My goal is to find new and exciting ways to connect with people, build new relationships and take my new purpose to the next level.
The time is now.